Thankful

Bismillah or In the name of God, I am thankful for still alive, learning to live well even with these paranormal beings saying what's inside my mind, good, Allah's mercy, courage. If those paranormal beings aren't here, those thoughts wouldn't be really the actual thoughts I'm thinking. They are an additional thing on me. I am sorry if you may hear it and it says something bad. I read that if you accept a sorry in Islam, you will also be rewarded.